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Monday, 02 November 2009

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    By Oren Lavie
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    Do What Blesses You

    There is always something to do. There are hungry people to feed, naked people to clothe, sick people to comfort and make well. And while I don't expect you to save the world, I do think it's not asking too much for you to love those with whom you sleep, share the happiness with those whom you call friend, engage those among you who are visionary, and remove from your life those who offer you depression, despair, and disrespect. -- Nikki Giovanni

    Got this quote from my beautiful friend Noelle during our weekly Saturday brunch. That's been my motto for the weekend. I decided that I spend too much time doing things that are wasteful and useless, and vow to pour my energy and resources into the things that bless me or bless others. I realize that if I'm to live this out, it's time to make some changes in my life. Changes in how I spend my time, changes even in how often I check Facebook or other online habits I have. And, as the quote above highlights, I need to start making changes in who I choose to invest my time and my heart in.

    Now when I say, "do what blesses me," I don't mean "do what makes me happy." I mean what is ultimately good, what will ultimately enrich my life, and what will ultimately glorify God. Those things may not always feel good or be fun, but in the grand scheme of things, they will produce fruit. As I was in conversation with Noelle about choices I had to make even this weekend about who to spend time with, she listened patiently to my ramblings. And she said to me simply, "I think you already know what choice to make. Do what blesses you. Don't make your choices because you feel like you should do something. Because ultimately a choice like that blesses no one."

    So true.

    On another note, here are some pictures from this past weekend. Normally I HATE Halloween, dressing up, and all that comes with it, but in the spirit of being social, I actually had not one, but TWO costumes this year:

    Weekend #1: You can't really see the witch costume well, but this is the only picture I could find where you can actually see me in the costume:
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    Weekend 2: Austin Bat. Again, not a lot of good pictures, but I'm wearing bat wings. The cane isn't mine - I stole it from a pimp for the picture.
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Saturday, 31 October 2009

Thursday, 29 October 2009

  • Too good not to share

  • This is a question I've been asking myself lot over the past week. I've been feeling a lot of unrest and dissatisfaction lately, and couldn't pinpoint where it was coming from. It got to the point where my personal life was bleeding into my work, and my advisor actually approached me and asked if everything was okay, because my efficiency and the quality of my work over the last 2 weeks have not been on par with what it normally is.

    So, that's my cue to figure my crap out. I wrote earlier about how I felt I didn't know where my life was going and perhaps I was lacking faith. Through some prayer and conversation, turns out I just don't know what the heck I want anymore.

    I live my whole life trying to fit into this ideal that may or may not be right for me. For example, I learn that a Biblical person does this with their money, and I decide that's what I'm going to do with my money. I learn that a good Psychologist does A, B, and C. I go ahead and do A, B, C, and D. I am told that someone who loves the environment is careful to pick up certain habits, and I make those habits a daily routine.

    Which in some ways, there is nothing wrong with that, right? I mean, you SHOULD pick up tendencies, goals, etc. that are good and right. However,the problem is I never figured out who I was in the first place! I've gotten to the point where people ask me if I'm a city girl, and I really have no idea anymore. I think I am, but is that because of movies I've seen that romanticizes the lifestyle, or do I actually prefer the quiet countryside?

    In yoga, whenever I try to correct bad posture or tendencies, a lot of times I tell people to just observe how their current postures or tendencies without judgement. Because in order to grow and to change, you have to know your starting point. From your starting point, THEN you can make the necessary adjustments. I have NO IDEA what my starting point is in terms of my desires, my dreams, and my preferences. Regardless of whether they are good or bad, I am completely at a loss.

    So here begins my journey to discover my preferences. My goal is to only find out what they are without judgement. (I've even started a wall where I will post quotes, clippings, and pictures of things that I like). We shall see where this takes me!

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